Proclamations of Unrequited Love N°1

Proclamations of Unrequited Love - N°1: An excerpt from the many poems and letters written for and about MOI, by My minions who dare to glimpse into Pandora’s box..

MOTH TO THE FLAME

“Always on the horizon, You sparkle like a Diamond, like a flame
Pulling, calling, flickering. And so i come closer to You.
Circling round the flame, feeling Your heat,
giving in to the magnetism.
Until You singe the edges of my wings, burn my feet
i leave….but then soon return again.

This time, i lose half of a wing to the consuming flame that is You.
I fall downward in a slow spiral, finally tumbling on the ground.
It takes a while this time to recover. But then i look up at the flame!
It still calls to me.
I beat what remains of my wings hard, and begin to take off again.
Right back up to the flame.

Big loopy circles, rounding the candle. The light consumes my focus.
Swinging by to the side of the fire once, then twice.
The next loop passes right through the flame.
My small world sings as my wings burn away.
The flame flickers brighter!
Then my legs. Then my eyes.
I come to rest in the pool of hot wax at the base of the flame.
My body screams as it sinks into the liquid.
Your world becomes brighter, stronger. My world fades to black.

To be a part of that which is Perfection,
to allow the Diamond Diva to shine
Is how i would like to use my life. To give it over to You.
Princess, i beg You to use me, burn me, consume me.
For it is only in serving and pleasing You that my life is worthwhile.”

- written by the little MOTH ever drawn to MY FLAME

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he’s ONLY fred now & he’ll NEVER recover..

About 3 years ago, freddy voodoo dolly had a black velvet bag over his head and 3 pins in his heart. he was, at that time, in such a DIRE CIRCUMSTANCE because FREDDY, who started out with $100,000 investment account when he met Me, had squandered a nice chunk of $$ 100 GRAND $$ on ME, not to mention some of the home equity loan him and his wifeypoo had taken out for his house repairs, as well.

Oh was it EVER a SORDID mess, with freddy scurrying about trying to hang on by a thread, clinging to his very last pennies. SO GROSS! OMG whatever! I never gave him permission to fix his leaky roof, so it def was NOT MY prob when he couldn’t afford to pay the roofing guys because he already spent the money on ME!! I’m sure everyone wonders what his wifeypoo said when she found out that ALL that money was gone, totally WIPED OUT! LMFAO. I can just imagine how he tried to explain THAT one away.

Ultimately he begged and begged Me to accept the measly little contributions he offered and could barely even afford, as he was now reduced to sub-par offerings by his new found poverty. Naturally he was DELIRIOUSLY focused on keeping MY presence in his life. But eww. NO WAY. I told him to come up with another $$ 10 GRAND $$ up front, or it was BUHBYE for good. I mean really, he should have figured out how to get more money for Me BEFORE it came to THAT!! And I did give him some GREAT tips, I mean had he listened to Me 3 years ago and invested in GOLD he would have had a return of like astronomical proportion. So I feel NO PITY for him at all.

Anyway, about 6 months ago or thereabouts, he royally screwed up by contacting someone who had My banner on their site, desperate to get ahold of Me. I had EXCOMMUNICATED freddy 3 years prior, and by excommunication I mean he had/has NO way to contact Me, AND he is banned everywhere, including Yahoo and Niteflirt. Even his IP is blocked on My website, because he kept sitting looking at it every SINGLE day, just totally gawking at it, which was SO annoying! As IF he deserves to look at My site! So WHAT if he spent like $$ 100 GRAND $$ on Me?? he went bust after, so that still makes him a BROKE LOSER!! My ONE excommunication rule was to NEVER utter My name, for as long as he lives. SO for him to contact that person and go on for MONTHS about how OBSESSED he is with Me and how he CAN’T get over Me (after nearly 3 years LMAO), etcetcetc, clearly violates My EXCOMMUNICATION rule.

Not a day goes by that he doesn’t pine away over how much FUN he had being MY PINCUSHION. And, I really can’t say that I blame him, I AM unfuckingbelievably FABULOUS like that. I have this way about Me that just gets under your skin and gets you hooked from the start. Being able to speak with Me live on messenger and the telephone is like PURE ADRENALINE, you get so addicted to how GOOD it feels to give Me what I WANT, that you start feeling like SUPERMAN on top of the world. But WOW is it EVER a long hard crash spiralling down when you’ve DISAPPOINTED ME! What a FALL. you NEVER recover.

But now, I discover that freddy has really hit ROCK BOTTOM. Just a few days ago it was brought to My attention that the same person who freddy contacted 6 months ago after seeing MY banner on their site, now suddenly has attempted to copy one of MY ROYAL SACRAMENTS from My SECRET SOCIETY, in a pathetic & feable attempt, a poorly reproduced & regurgitated MOCKERY of MY ART, which they are selling in one of their super CHEAP clips. Total SACRILEGE. I looked for Myself, and sure enough, there it was, ignorantly called “THE BLOOD OATH”, a not at all clever combination of My titles ‘THE SACRED OATH’ and ‘BLOOD RITUAL’. I was SO disgusted, OMG you have NO IDEA. The rituals which those who are a part of My SECRET SOCIETY perform are secret sacred rites, and as SS slaves they are SWORN to secrecy. I knew immediately what FOOL it was that had leaked this SS information.

freddys contract signed in his own lifes blood, postmarked 2005

In My displeasure for this ignorantly revolting display, I immediately tweeted about it, to make sure that EVERYONE, including the perpetrator, who conveniently follows Me on TWITTER would see it.

A few minutes later, the cretant messaged Me on yahoo, saying how it saw My twitter messages, and how freddy has become so annoying and desperate, asking them to make clips like ME, and wanting to find someone to “mimic” Me. OMG. LMAO! I did NOT expect them to message Me with that, seriously. It was perfectly OBVIOUS. I didn’t need confirmation. Needless to say I blocked it on Twitter. But this person is not important. Anyone who is well involved in this fetish will immediately recognize MY BLOOD RITUAL posted on any other website than CapitalisticBlonde.com, and they will SCOFF at the abject idiocy. My SS & the Royal Sacraments are VERY well known.

However! FREDDY is another thing altogether. tsktsktsk freddy. It must truly SUCK to be only FRED now, as the OTHER people in your life know you. What a sad state of affairs you’ve gotten yourself into. Taking your measly pennies, that I REJECTED, all around the web, begging people to “mimic” Me??! LMAO. OMG what a PRETTY picture that is. Even more amusing is the thought that for a mere fraction of the money I threw back in your face, and DENIED you the pleasure of sending to Me, some ickypoo chick is bending over backwards, working their butt off, trying soooooo hard to MIMIC ME. OMG so desperate!

And YOU! LMAO. Just thinking of you so desperate to RELIVE the moment that I made you metaphorically AND literally BLEED for Me, that you would sit there watching a dull STAGED video, which you bought for less than I would wipe My nose with, a “re-enactment” with NO LIFE, NO SPARK in it, of the ULTIMATE highlight of your life, the moment when I captured your SOUL and made it MINE. It’s like trying to convince yourself that a cheap china knock off with sharp plastic tags & bad seams is a GUCCI handbag. you of all people KNOW the difference, did you really think you could fool yourself?

I delight in the knowledge that such a thing will do nothing but leave you with a dull aching VOID in your heart and soul, a hollow painful spot, longing for MY LUMINESCENCE, which has been FOREVER extinguished from your life. you deserve NOTHING less.

P.S. I’m even going to unblock freddys ip for TWO WHOLE DAYS so he can read this. I hate to make his year like that, but I want him to KNOW what hit him.

P.S.S. Curious about My Blood Ritual, ‘Le Rite Rouge Profond’? Want to know what all the FUSS is about?? Read all about HERE, on a new page dedicated to the SS, just added to My website. you must complete the 3 Royal Sacraments to pass disciple initiation, and move onto the 4th SECRET ROYAL SACRAMENT. you are SWORN TO SECRECY as a member of the SS. If you break your oath, you WILL be immediately removed from the order & EXCOMMUNICATED. The Royal Sacraments are your bond to MY Religion, and your VOW to uphold the secrecy of the society and its order.